dere haf alwai been a r0pe tight ard mai heart
when can ii actly untight the kn0t?
tis tym rd ii cant use w0rd t0 describe how ii feel deep dw mai heart.
yea ii luv him...
ii luv him till the extent tt ii can gif up mai life jus f0r him...
the 0nli ting iish
y cant ii get al0ng well wif his family member?
jus bec0s 0f his fcking br0?
it been 2 yr ii gif in t0 him
yea as all 0f dem n0e he iish still a kid...
but d0es he haf the rite t0 climb up t0 the t0p 0f mai head n shit?
t0lerate t0lerate n still t0lerate...
2 yr alreadi...
being wif him isn't an easy task f0r mi...
in tis relati0nship
ii dun felt being luv but being abuse..
he iish reali sweet n caring t0 mi...
can sae tt he iish s0 far all the guy ii met the best 1 0f all
nth g0es wr0ng wif 0ur relati0nship iish jus tt there iish alwai
a idi0t cming in between us...
ii 0nce t0ld myself...
tis might be the test given by the g0d
as a pr0ve tt hw str0ng 0ur luv f0r each 0ther iish
but tis tym rd
haven gt ani gut t0 accepted ani test
i'm a l0ser alreadi.
ii dun mean wad ii d0 each tym..
it a wai 0f hw human being express themself in certain wai
f0r example if mai best fren lyk t0 eat 0range n ii dun
f0r her sake ii can try t0 accept the taste 0f the 0range
but f0r self express as in attitude every1 0f us iish different...
ii jus w0nder d0 ii reali haf smth ard mai b0dy tt make every1 dislyk mi?
even d0ing a gd deed seem lyk ii did smth bad t0 ppl...
in ppl eye even mai 0wn family member i'm jus a r0tten apple
tt d0nt even deserve t0 be exist.
2 b0ttle 0f c0ugh syrup, a b0ttle 0f beer it still nt taking mai life awai
hw can ii left tis fcking w0rld by nt 0bvi0usly seen..
ii dun mind seeling mai s0ul t0 dem0n 0r sh0rten mai life
in return t0 gain wad ii wish f0r...
ii dun0...
feel dam fck up wif everyting nw......
bee bee ILY ):
